More than two months have passed and still, I can't get my mind off YOU...
...YOU who loved me the way I am.
...YOU who brought back the confidence in me.
...YOU who made me feel that there's no other love but me.
...YOU who wonders what it would be like to be with me.
...YOU who wished for me to be your wife.
...YOU who cried and questioned the complexity of our situation.
...YOU who opted to spend every single time with me.
...YOU who seeked my attention constantly.
...YOU who does not want to rest for you don't want to miss a thing.
...YOU who are not sure of what you want and just live for today.
Is the same person that I LOVE and wants to be with each day despite of...
...YOU denying me every time we go out.
...YOU don't make me feel important anymore.
...YOU don't want to see me and be with me anymore.
...YOU letting me go even if I pleaded not to.
...YOU giving me so much pain and sleepless nights.
...YOU who now together with her is in my dreams laughing boastfully in front of my gloomy face.
...YOU who continuously breaks my unguarded heart.
...YOU who I can't stand living without.
Believe me, I look for ways to destruct myself...avoiding your friends and the places we've been but...
...it is still YOU who I look for when I open my eyes.
...it is still YOU who I crave to wrap my arms around with before I lay down.
...it is still YOU who I long to talk to.
...it is still YOU who I wish to see over the net.
...it is still YOU who I want to be beside me when I feel high and low.
...it is still YOU who I choose to dedicate all the songs that I listen to.
...it is still YOU who I desire to serve my morning coffee.
...it is still YOU who I hope to ring my phones and buzz my bell.
...it is still YOU who I yearn to sleep and wake up with.
...it is still YOU who I seek to hug when I feel cold and during lonely times.
...it is still YOU who I enjoy spending dull times with.
...it is still YOU who I cherish even if you're so drunk and sleepy.
...it is still YOU who occupies my heart and mind...
And every single day that passes I torture my soul to STOP but...
...still fighting myself not to think and look for YOU
...still controlling myself not to give YOU a call.
...still forcing myself to ignore your existence.
...still struggling to understand your reason of leaving me.
...still bombarding myself with thoughts that we will never be together.
...still hearing YOU say, "I was never yours".
...still recalling past events that would make me hate you.
...still asking myself what have I done wrong for you to leave me
and what could I have done for you to stay.
I can't shut my mind...
I can't quiet my heart...
I can't hold my tears...
I can't pick up the pieces...
I can't have peace...
I can't let YOU go...
I can't help but hope to be together again.
